Wow, its been 5 months for randy and I, I bet he thought he'd never

 see the day where his relationships would come this far. I love this kid

to death, he's amazing in everyway, I've been sad only today though,

 jus cuz the snow days and not seeing him and just ya kno, sometimes

 you have those days. I just hope we can actually have time to

ourselves next week, cuz I actually had stuff planned for his birthday,

 and we never really got alone time ya kno. I wanted to hang out on his

birthday but we were both busy. I just want him to ask me out again,

 and we can just do little things again like kisses on forehead, butterfly

 kisses, just holding each other, naps, watching movies together in the

basement, playing foosball, hottubbing, flowers, romantic dates to the

 movies or dinner. It's just that time ya kno like when you get to your

 half a year stage, you really gotta take time to sit down and just talk to

each other more, not about bad stuff just make sure they're doin okay,

talk about how much you appreciate ea. other and stuff. Lets face

 sometimes people forget to do that and thats why a lot of the times

 relationships fail because they just start to fade after 6 months , but I

 dont want that to happen with Randall. 5 months is an accomplishment

 but I wanna get to a year and just say wow, that was a breeze ya kno.

On a good note, on this snow day my baby got to hang out with some

 guys for once, secretly I was happy for him, although I sounded sad.

Im happy for him to go to the girls game on Monday by himself too.

FACEBOOK and MYSPACE

     For some reason I don't understand people's fascination with getting on myspace and facebook, ya know. It's cool and all to ya talk to people and search for cute guys or girls if you're single, but I don't really think people should have one. I just don't want people knowing that much about me you know. Plus it's like gossip central, and that's no way to talk about people. I say everyone just do what we used to do, stick to journals for writing down your thoughts, or pick up the damn phone and talk to someone ya kno. I don't really have that many people to talk to so I just write away. But no, seriously I've had so many bad experiences with both myspace and facebook. I've been stalked repeatedly, like seriously stalked, I can't just get on it and enjoy talking to people I haven't seen in awhile, and after awhile you just get bored and don't know why you even got on facebook or myspace. Also I don't think anyone in a relationship should really have one, because I've had a lotta personal experiences. People are gonna messge you and say you're cute and some people get sucked into that...because it's tempting to talk to someone online because you think its not doing anyone harm, but really it is. I think there is such a thing of cheating on someone online. I honestly just think facebook and myspace should be shut down because they seriously made me paranoid about people and people's intentions. If you see someone like your boyfriend or girlfriend or friend online all the time, what are you gonna think. It's just better to just pick up a damn fone, and if you dont wannt talk there is this thing call textin. We all get this online friends who we think are really there for us and are our actual friends but do they ever call you? NO! its just not realistic, so I terminated mine both and have no intention of ever gettin back on. And no one is that important for me to keep my facebook/ myspace for to talk to. It's just really 'made me paranoid because again ive been stalked, I've been cheated on, found out people were talking about me on these sites so..thats my personal opinion. It just scares me, that you dont know, anything could happen in the computer world and anyone could message someone, ending something good. It' s just sad.